There Was A Baby, Then There Was Not

“His heart was beating and then it was not. I had two kids and then I had one. I was pregnant and then I was postpartum. There was a baby and then there was not. How do I explain that he died before he was born? How many times do I have to tell my daughter June that he’s not coming back? How many times do I have to tell myself? Now I make lists.

I fill out forms like this:
Number of pregnancies: 2
Number of live births: 1″


Excerpt from Kate Suddes’ powerful piece,Nice Baby Boy, honoring her son, Paul, stillborn three weeks before her due date. Her experience and interview are featured in A Cup Of Jo’s Motherhood Mondays series.

Photo Credit: Gisela Giardino via Flickr cc